Good grief, am I relieved that I survived last night.
I’m a relatively well composed individual, but for some reason going to events where I know I’m going to meet new people women, really makes me nervous. It probably has something to do with the fact that I don’t have a lot of female friends…which probably has something to do with the fact that I just don’t get along with other women easily.
Not to hate on our clearly superior gender…I just mean that I find it hard to relate to other women…and I dislike the way a lot of them behave.
Even of the few female friends that I do have (I can count them on my own two hands) aren’t perfect. Sure, they’re (imho) good people…but even some of my “best” friends are plagued with being flaky, bitchy, judgmental, and passive-aggressive!
Women are known to immediately size up and judge every other female they meet. I am easily intimidated…I know I’m not the perfect female specimen. I don’t know how to put on make-up, I barely know how to manage my hair, I don’t always have the best, most “put together” outfits, nor do I shave my legs on a daily basis. Heck, you should’ve seen me in high school! One of my best friends still remembers the day she sat me down and explained the concept of “matching” to me, haha.
Fast forward to today, and I’m still nervous. I still feel like the runt of the litter, and I keep waiting to have one of the others rip my head off because I don’t upkeep my eyebrows as often as I should. Though luckily over the years I’ve managed a certain level of indifference and confidence. I have a fake shell of false superiority because I have “better things” to do than waste time watching youtube videos on how to properly apply mascara.
But I digress. My point is: although I am not the girliest of girls, I still don’t want to be an outcast and crave having a good group of girlfriends around me. Sure, I will always have my group of best girl friends, but more than half of them suffer from my same insecurities/lack of care & knowledge for all things girly. And those are the girls I relate to the best…the ones who also don’t know what they’re doing when it comes to cosmetics, and who are uneasy when it comes to making other girl friends.
So, really, I lucked out last night. Carly introduced me to her friend Deanna last night, and she is definitely a kindred spirit. With her quirky fashion sense, crazy curly poofy hair, oversized reading glasses, and sailor-esque potty mouth. We spent the night eating 69 cent vegan tacos, drinking, and playing games. Overall, a night well spent :) It’s always encouraging when you step outside of your normal boundaries and are rewarded for doing so!
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awanderingdaughter said:
I’m sorry…but… WHERE ON GODS GREEN EARTH ARE THERE 69 CENT VEGAN TACOS!?!?!?!